UNCERTAINTY AND HOPE..

Am back after very long silence.. not that I have stopped having opinions.. but rather just caught up with JUST LIVING..

I am a disgruntled road user just as per many of my friends and foe.. i have been stuck in ridiculous traffic for no apparent reason.. thanks to the government for caring for our security.. but then again… it sure seem to me like a scaring tactic put forth to instil fear and uncertainty amongst us citizens.

Since March 8, we have been uncertain and that’s a fact!!! Coming to think of it, uncertainty has loomed our lives since time immemorial.. There is a small percentage of uncertainty that peeks in almost anything we can think of.. there is no certainty in what we did yesterday, just now or even miliseconds ago.. its all relative..

Such, we can conclude that at the point of uncertainty.. HOPE steps in..

Just a thot,
d

Challenges, Challenges, Challenges..

We face challenges everyday.. The test for us beings on earth, is how we proact or react.. The way respond or correspond may make or break us..

Post Elections.. The recent turn of events is a going to prove to be an uphill challenge for many.. for the ruling government to exercise lesser power will be a challenge.. for the opposition to work in a team of diverse people might prove to be a challenge as well.. The Malaysian government agencies will need to acclimatize to new policies and procedures.. Agencies and organisations working with the government on local and federal projects will be affected as well.. We, the rakyat will be affected in one way or the other.. We must have to brave the stormy weathers to emerge as winners..

Moving beyond elections.. to me.. i am challenged too.. i started a new job.. from a field of familiarity to a field of unfamiliarity.. the only thing that rings in my ear.. is a quote that caught my attention 15 years ago..

The illiterate of the 21st century will not be those who cannot read and write, but those who cannot learn, unlearn, and relearn. ~ Alvin Toffler

I know its going to be an uphill task for me to move forward.. so what.. life is a roller coaster ride for many.. and so it is.. with God’s love and guidance anything is possible..

Love,
dhena

Perseverance.. My Lesson Learnt At Taman Negara

It was yet another interesting weekend with the ATMAH Project team.. a group of people from diverse backgrounds converge together towards one goal.. this time around it was camping in Taman Negara..

Through the rough terrains.. I persevered
With my bad back.. I persevered..
With my monkey mind telling me stop.. I persevered..
With my blistered feet.. I persevered..
And yes.. I finally did attain my goals.. I conquered the better parts of Taman Negara..

For fellow current and ex-zubedyans.. it felt good to be committed with action and savour the results.. many would have admired the spectacular view from the top.. but for me.. the exhilaration of completing the journey was spectacular enough..

There was one song that came to mind at that point..

I am on top of the world looking
Down on creation and the only explanation that I found..
Its the love that i have ever since you been around..
Your love puts me at the top of the world..

I felt like I was enveloped by the arms of the Universe.. it was a wonderful feeling.. the spirits were high though tired and I learnt many lessons that night.. thank you my darling pals for walking with me through this lesson and showing me another side of you..

• Susie for that smile that never wears off your face even in the most awkward moments
• Kana for the love and care you have for all of us.. you just have so much to give
• Vicky for your determination and wit that kept many of us going..
• Leena for your sense and sensibility..
• Revathy for your charm that got many tickled in their toes
• Kathir for your confidence
• Vela for us the other side of you that no one ever knew existed..
• Shantakumar for that brave front you put at most times..
• Renga the knight in shining armour.. need I say more..
• Liza the patience you had with many of us through our cooking sessions
• Kumar for ensuring we all took the final step together..

Lastly, in the confrontation between the stream and the rock, the stream always wins -- not through strength but by perseverance ~Jackson Browne

Love you all..
dhena

Say It And Mean It

Growing up in a small town away from the city.. deprives you of many things and yet protects you from some things.. let it be good or bad..

Growing up in a small town, Valentine's Day was just another day passing.. but i was not spared of it.. i was 14 when i received my first stalk of rose from this boy i had this huge crush on.. hahaha.. melted my heart..

Interesting that when at a time when you are digitally divided from the rest of the world and you have no clue what Valentine's is but you are nevertheless engulfed and immersed by the attention and charm surrounding it.. nothing happened with that boy after that.. but Valentine's sure did follow me like a shadow through my growing years

Year after year i am reminded by it.. with the media hype which bridges the digital divide... you are not only bombarded from every nook you turn too but receive a barrage of sniding comments if you are not for it..

Many have become so centred to this day that we forget that everyday is a celebration.. why wait for February 14 to express how you feel to your loved ones.. yet its funny how we forget to say little things like I'm Sorry, Thank You, Take Care and I Love You to people who matter most to us.. So what would one day of over priced flowers do? I wonder..

My thoughts on this is.. let's cut the hype surrounding Valentine's and make everyday Valentines.. appreciate your loved ones.. love them like there is no tomorrow.. say it and mean it..

To all my loved ones.. i love you much much..

just a thot..

dhena

Relationships Are A Mirror Of You

I woke up this morning feeling guilty for not keeping up to my promise of weekly update on my blog..

I realized that all my disappointments are linked to my expectations.. and these expectations are entwined to my relationships either with myself or the people around me whether its loved ones or those i just met..

The past couple of days has been a roller coaster ride at work.. I am not only learning new things about people but also about myself..

The pas week made me more mindful of;

My annoyance with those who claimed who knew everything..
My displeasure with services rendered..
My irritation when someone is late..
My temper with common sense that isn’t so common anyway..
My disappointments when my expectations felt short…

And the list goes on..

Engulfed with guilt, I aim to finish at least one posting today.. but the universe had another lesson in store.. and this is my contemplation for the week

The people we are in relationship with are always a mirror, reflecting our own beliefs, and simultaneously we are mirrors reflecting their beliefs. So relationship is one of the most powerful tools for growth... if we look honestly at our relationships we can see so much about how we have created them.

~ Shakti Gawain

Such, my contemplation this week is all about learning from our relationships…

Just a thot..
dhena

p.s. May you emulate the coming year by being creative and resourceful to achieve your goals in life.. Gong Xi Fa Cai..

That Which Begins Must Come To An End..

Everything that Begins Must Come to An End I am told.. Such, i examine this statement further..

Birth and Death is inevitable.. the only thing that is constant in this ever changing life on earth.. Such the life we live is a temporary platform for bigger and better things i would like to think.. So if birth is at one end of the spectrum and death on the other.. life seems to be the only thing we have a choice about..

But then again.. how many of us live life putting everyone and everything else before us.. and then regret every moment spent doing it.. i happen to be one of them.. the people pleaser.. i am a work in progress.. am learning my lesson.. its hard but necessary..

The next question is why do we have to live our life to the fullest.. my take again, i want my obituary to read.. "the woman who lived life to the fullest".. so this day forward.. i am throwing caution to the wind and want to live my life 'sensibly' dangerous..

And to friends who coloured my life.. who got onto the bus of life with me and had to get off at some point.. i thank you from the bottom of my heart for having taught me valuable lessons.. And for those who are still in my circle of love.. thank you much for adding the drama in my life..

Love you all..
d

2007.. A stock take..

It was great year.. many lessons learnt and...

now moving on to 2008.. more resolutions, hopes and dreams.. Looking forward from the positive twist of 2007, i am looking forward for this year to be much more fruitful..

I want to contribute to:
1. Empowering the citizens of Earth..
2. Preserving Extinct Animals..
3. Enhancing the Quality of Air around us..
4. Uplifting My Soul..
5. Connecting to the Universe...

These might seem like a tall order.. but nothing can be achieved without us taking the first step.. such i am taking my first step towards my goals..

Initiating the change...

dhena